Rosyln- Bon Iver & St. Vincent
There was a moment where I doubted my own friends, questioning their intentions and in my futile attempt to see things from their eyes, my insecurities distorted my own vision. My fears outcasted me. Then I thought about it and wondered, “What the fuck happened for me to get to this point?”. My head, I swear will be the death of me. I love you guys and I’m sorry things got hazy.
Because there is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it’s sent away.
Had to listen to the whole poem from the photo set going around tumblr. She’s fucking brilliant. Will start following her for sure.
We’ve learned to call queens outside of their real titles. Girls became ‘Jawns’, ‘Jawns’ became ‘bitches’, and bitches ain’t shit but hoes and tricks. Whose trick was that? Is it a coincidence that the Virgin Mary and Mary Magdalene share the same name, but not the same crown? These girls have no crown. Just scalp-pats and ass-taps. They say “Hit it from the back”. Well, I couldn’t look a Queen in the eye either. So we’ll just pretend they’re all animals or objects. Because devotion is harder than disconnection. Someone disconnect the throne from the seat of their elastic denim. Beat them till they bounce back like rubber-banded bimbos. Tell them bend over. Can you wave hello to hell? Can you smell the burning embers? Does it smell like sulphur? Does it smell like dirty twat? You know, dirty twats get swatted into filthy gutters. We’ve got to get our minds out the gutter. Gotta get these hoes off the track. Gotta get this glue out this trap. Those sticky, Nicki Minaj impersonators, those self-proclaimed “Bad bitches”, “Hood Bitches”, “Five-star Bitches”. They disrespect the galaxies because heaven has no place for whores. So where will they go? Sexual freedom isn’t acceptable for women. Due to the misogyny massaged into men’s brains. A Queen loses her crown when she loses her virginity. And a Queen becomes a ‘bitch’ when she likes it.”
— Kai Davis, A Queen Loses Her Crown When She Loses Her Virginity
It’s true. I want a relationship. Problem is, I’m too scared to get hurt. I always tend to open myself up enough for someone to get close to me but when it comes to the point where I know the other person likes me back, I start to shut back down. I always feel emotionally unstable when I know someone likes me back. It’s probably because when I find out they quit on me and I still like them, my hopes are crushed, my feelings are hurt, and the whole cycle repeats again.